I’ve really been working on that permission thing.  I’m ok with choir being gone next year.  I will miss it when I hear those really cool songs but I’m good.  I think the teaching may go also.  I will be available to help with the class but I just need a break from being the one in charge.  Dance won’t be as crazy as I was thinking.  My daughter has another year before she can begin prepointe so we’ll have her 4 classes and my son’s 1 or maybe 2.  That’s very doable.   I think the bulk of my time will be dealing with work and doing the childbirth education classes.  A girl at work is pregnant.  I’m very excited for her and her husband.   They’ve been trying for awhile.  It’s also scary for me as the boss though.  How long will she be gone?  Will she decide that she doesn’t want to come back?  What do I do then???  It’s scary.  The office is going really well and I don’t want anything to change that.  I know that things change and I deal but it’s so hard to get staff trained as well as she is.  It’s hard to find staff that are committed to staying and working hard and then to find one that is good at her job…..I don’t want to have to find that again.  I know their fnances are such that she won’t leave – they just can’t swing it with just his income.  But, I know how badly she wants to stay home and raise her kid(s).  It’s just a scary thing for me.  The office did incredible last month!  We’ve had several records set and broken.  I feel good about where it’s going and I want that to stay in motion.  The childbirth education classes scare me a bit too.  I know this area needs more choices and I think they will be received well.  But, it will take some work to get them up and going.  I’m working my way through the book reports.  I think I’m on book 5 of 11.  I haven’t even started on the papers yet.  It’s overwhelming but if other things are being handled it’s very doable.  I look forward to doing the teaching.  I like to teach and talk birth – as some of you readers have picked up on.  LOL  I’m very passionate about it.  I know I’ll feel better after I do the weekend training.  A lot of this is just that I have so many things going on.  I’m in the midst of having something every single weekend until mid May.  There’s not any downtime.  When I can sit, I find my brain going a million miles an hour thinking of the things I “should” be doing.  I have caught myself feeling bad for working on my cross stitch.  That’s important to me to finish and NOT at the last minute yet I’ve felt bad.  I stopped that very quick.  It will all get done.  God won’t give me more than I can handle and he will provide the time and the strength to handle it all.  He’ll also give me the wisdom to know when I need to do something right then.  He has a path laid for me and he won’t make me go away from that path.  I fought the devil trying to distract me with newer and bigger houses.  I see now is not the time for that and I’ve let it go.  Would it be nice?  Sure.  But, God will provide that when it’s the right time.  It won’t be a chore that is overloading my thinking but will fit in with everything else.  He has the right timeline and I need to remember to follow Him!